What Are! you thinking?

Like those little sparkly lights that appear at the edge of your vision, but disappear when you try to look at them; the thoughts that scamper through my head, particularly when I am not focused on anything are pretty damn hard to pin down.
I know...
I tried...
Hey, it was a slow day !
I can pile them onto my train of thought but you never know where that will end, laying track as I go.
Even at work, where my mind should easily be able to stay on tasks that are familiar, thought banditos regularly threaten to hijack the train. They are hard to shake off, especially when they tempt with a segue to a happy place, the little buggers.
I used to have a worry train. Late at night, when there are no distractions, the monsters would creep in, magnified in the dark - looming large. Whether stressing work, health or the state of the world, they made bedtime an unattractive prospect. They twisted reality and made it hard to sleep. I battled them best as I could, sometimes with sedatives of varying kinds, mostly with the calming voice of a documentary on the History channel.
Sleeping to the nightlight of the nineties became routine. This worked fairly well unless they threw on a war documentary or a commercial of some guy having a heart attack. Nice; just what I need.
Those days are now long gone, thank god. I found that I actually have to steer the train... odd. And the random flitting thoughts? I try to corral em ....so you can get em here first folks!